Bike Ride with Older Boys
by Laura Kasischke
The one I didn't go on.
I was thirteen,
and they were older.
I'd met them at the public pool. I must
have given them my number. I'm sure
I'd given them my number,
knowing the girl I was. . .
It was summer. My afternoons
were made of time and vinyl.
My mother worked,
but I had a bike. They wanted
to go for a ride.
Just me and them. I said
okay fine, I'd
meet them at the Stop-n-Go
at four o'clock.
And then I didn't show.
I have been given a little gift—
something sweet
and inexpensive, something
I never worked or asked or said
thank you for, most
days not aware
of what I have been given, or what I missed—
because it's that, too, isn't it?
I never saw those boys again.
I'm not as dumb
as they think I am
but neither am I wise. Perhaps
it is the best
afternoon of my life. Two
cute and older boys
pedaling beside me—respectful, awed. When we
turn down my street, the other girls see me ...
Everything as I imagined it would be.
Or, I am in a vacant field. When I
stand up again, there are bits of glass and gravel
ground into my knees.
I will never love myself again.
Who knew then
that someday I would be
thirty-seven, wiping
crumbs off the kitchen table with a sponge, remembering
them, thinking
of this—
those boys still waiting
outside the Stop-n-Go, smoking
cigarettes, growing older.
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Gee, You’re So Beautiful
That It’s Starting to Rain
by Richard Brautigan
Oh, Marcia,
I want your long blonde beauty
to be taught in high school,
so kids will learn that God
lives like music in the skin
and sounds like a sunshine harpsichord.
I want high school report cards
to look like this:
Playing with Gentle Glass Things
A
Computer Magic
A
Writing Letters to Those You Love
A
Finding out about Fish
A
Marcia’s Long Blonde Beauty
A+!
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Laura Kasischke (b. 1961) is an American fiction writer and poet. Her work has received the Juniper Prize, the Alice Fay di Castagnola Award from the Poetry Society of America, the Pushcart Prize, the Elmer Holmes Bobst Award for Emerging Writers, and the Beatrice Hawley Award. Her novel The Life Before Her Eyes is the basis for the film of the same name. She is a Professor of English Language and of the Residential College at the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor, Michigan. Her poetry includes: Wild Brides, Housekeeping in a Dream, Fire & Flower, What It Wasn't, Dance and Disappear, Gardening in the Dark and Lilies Without which was published in 2007. |
Richard Brautigan (1935 - 1984) published novels, stories and poetry. His first commercial success came with the publication of the novel Trout Fishing in America in 1967. Brautigan withdrew from a public life in 1972, living in Bolinas, California and rarely making appearances. In 1982, he taught at Montana State University and then went underground again. He committed suicide in 1984. His poetry collections include Rommel Drives on Deep Into Egypt, and The Springhill Mine Disaster, and his novels include The Tokyo-Montana Express, The Abortion, Willard and his Bowling Trophies, In Watermelon Sugar and A Confederate General from Big Sur. |